Saturday, September 3, 2011

did she know???

question in my heart n in my mind

did she know what im feeling
everytime waiting for her
insane to think but must accept the weakness of other
well not everybody perfect

did she know that i feel emptiness
every time she missing
and when im in trouble
well she not my wife to be with me all the time


did she know i cried
maybe im  a loser
but the fact is im so weak..
maybe she never notice that

did she know i made so may mistake
that i tried to fix it
without anybody helping
maybe im just stupid


but the question me the most is

did i know how she been
did i know how many time she cried
did i know what she been trhough
did i know how she feel..


the truth is...i dun know anything...i just put so much hope n so little effort....

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

im the smiley with the heart..

my heart can cry....because im a human too

the man with the smile,that's me
smiling where ever path i walk to
trying to hide waht inside
maybe fear,maybe frustration or loneliness

im the smiley with the heart
that so fragile n easily broken
it easy to scratch and easy to cripple
that has shredded many time that sometime its take time to fix

so if get my heart im begging u
plis take care of it gently
polish it every time so it could shine
never let it alone cause it get cold and lost|

im sorry if im too difficult to take care of
im sorry if im too hard to understand of
the only thing my heart want is an accompany
cause its been lonely for a long time...


Tuesday, August 23, 2011

고독한(lonely)

p/s:ya allah berilah aku kekuatan agar aku dpt harungi kesunyian ini...dgn dekat kan diri ku pada MU ..amin



everyday is the same story
everyday feeling the same
the same situation
i just dun know how to let it out

i tried crying
i tried talking
i tried keeping
it still the same

why i feel this way
cant just i forget her for a while..
let her go just for a minute
eliminating this feeling

its true im just lonely
its do border me
i can hide it from the world n even her
but i cant hide from myself

there's a person that i used to talk to
that i used to joke about..
that always care about me
even though im nobody

she text me when im nothing
she accompany me when im a goner
now it change,lets face the fact
people move on

they left u behind 
u just try to hold
eventually they will slip n gone
cry all day u want its still happen

i want to be the strong person
but the fact is im not
im hopeless n egoist
just face it

im a lonely person
try to survive
i guest that i just rely on a person to much
that when she gone,i m lost my way

to love somebody is a risk
to be understanding is hurtful
to care about somebody is responsibility
to stop loneliness is so hard..









Sunday, August 21, 2011

i never change

i know im confused..but the thing is i never change..not even for a minute

u talk to me like im a strange
said that ive has change
say its your fault
but inside u just wrong

i never change and still the same guy
that comfort u when u in trouble
that listen to all ur thought
n speak lovely word for u to sing along

the only thing is u never there now
there no one to comfort to
only a person that has secrets
n i juz stop to sang the word

im still here
cuz i ve have no where to go
i never change
cuz im still the person that love u....



Saturday, August 20, 2011

reminder:she waiting for u..

time past by pretty quick
that i couldn't count how much i fell so lonely
alhamdulillah it make me more closer to Allah
maybe far away from you

it hurt to wait n ignore the feeling
feel like the man that cant be move
let time past by just to take her out of my mind
i know she luv me

maybe i fell forgotten
time after time
u get used to it...
although it still the same feeling

i hate this feeling
but i luv her more..
u got a good girl
never let her her go

the pain i feel
the cry in my heart
is just the thing that make me somebody...
just one thing make me survive

thinking she waiting for me...
im just being selfish
the horrible me..
stop being a moron and start being somebody...

Saturday, July 9, 2011

she'19

i wrote her a song
so it could be a memory all along...

the title : 3 word

tepat pukul 12 pagi
teringat pada si pujaan hati
lalu kunyanyikan nukilan ini
hanya 3 perkataan untuk diungkap
SELAMAT HARI JADI

everyday the same situation
sometimes it drive me crazy
n sometimes i just want to forget
the 3 word of my feeling is
I  MISS U

setiap masa ku nantikan
agar berlalu untk ku sampaikan
tidak jemu kuungkap
3 perkataaan untuk ku luahkan
SAYA SAYANG AWAK

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

dis perfect...im 19

im 19...baru aku sedar mcm2...when 18 aku fikir nk enjoy je...msuk 19 aku stat fikir...pe yg aku nk buat dlm hidup ni...does it mean that im starting to be matured...hope so...sweet 19 myself....


ku tahu di dalam dunia tade yg sempurna
kerana kesempuraan hanya milik yg esa...

tidak kusedari dan terus ku lalai
hingga bertimpa peringatan untuk aku



dtg nye peringatan  ku hiraukan
dtg nya petunjuk ku endahkan
sehingga cinta dtg bru ku sedari
aku masih tak sempurna

mungkin kerana tiada cara lain
hanaya cinta yg sedarkan aku 

betapa jauh nye aku dri cintaNYA
terima kasih cinta....

dan KAU turun kan pembimbing
yg ku gelar sahabat..

yg membuka mata ku seluas nye...
sungguhnya aku dh hanyut


kini baru aku membuka mata
sedikit aku cuba kembali
kini mula menadah tangan
merangkak perlahan untuk sujud pada MU










Monday, April 25, 2011

it is not space ,but it is distance

how they are together still a mystery
how is the relationship is still a question

so the song begins
........................
she so far away from the romeo
away that to far that she cant see him
push the limit of loyalty and love
can they survive the wave of longing


as he wait for the juliet
  hewas lonely that he keep high hope forher

waiting for a call or just perhaps a message
maybe an asking about her for today


the juliet is too busy or 
perhaps just wanted to give some space
so that he would not feel trapped
without her knowing that he is slowly slipping from her


the guy need companion not space
that is not space that she gave in but a distance
a distance that further her from him
that maybe lost her from him

Monday, April 4, 2011

ME WITH THE FAKE SMILE

to all the black hearted  that talk about me just by seeing the outside of me..
from the start i try to figure out why i hated them..and now i know why....i just want to swear all out...


i fake my smile 
as it is hard to give a real smile 
when my heart was filled with shattered hope
and my mind filled with dark cloud.

yes I'm a jerk but a jerk that has heart
people talked about me
telling bullshit that they think is true
while i become the  antagonist in this world

they just talked and talked
now i know why i hated them
it is because of them
that rotten my heart

i can tell u that im ok with it
but im a human being and i get offended
so dont talk bullshit about me.
because u should know what a rotten heart could do





Saturday, April 2, 2011

the memory...the thing thatt should be erased...

the nightmare that haunt me,
the thing from the past that just keep on coming
to show me what is like to be a loner
and becoming a dark hearted man

the room full with people but yet still empty
no one to talk too and to be understand
sitting in the corner hoping all would end
just a fake smile to please all the viewers

they talked and talked with no stop
while i just looking for something that please me
so i wont feel this emptiness
but it just foolish that are inside of me

everybody said its their best memory
but i think it otherwise..
as it just hurts me inside thinking of it
better to get rid the memory inside of me

this memory is killing me
thinking of it make me scream inside
from the beginning to the end still the same
as they laugh while i cry inside the darkened heart.




others sweet memories is my horrifying memory

they said it was the best thing happen to them
each second to be remembered,
its their victory that they had achieve
by using selfishness and cruelty

my stupidity and my kindness back stabbed me
now i know it juz you,the champion among all
the culprit that hide in the shadow of glory
you show the world you are the best

remember this wording that are in me
you also show me the dark side of me
and it surely is the valueble lesson.
and i make sure my dark side will overshadow all

it is the best memory for you
and a dark black memory for me
each second is pain and misery
the victory is yours and the death is mine

Thursday, March 31, 2011

the unfold story

story of two heart,
romeo's heart just realize shes the one
while for the Juliet the feeling starts blooming
in the darkest night both covers their feeling

while both start acting
came the dark knight with a shining armor
has no clue about both feeling
he then take the move that the romeo should has taken

the romeo is slow while juliet is clueless..
both playing tricks and clues
to meke each other realize
hoping to be together

just one decision shifted all of the feeling
the juliet became eager for the love
the dark knight move forward
while the romeo walks away

nothing can be done by romeo
as the dark knight conquer the kingdom of heart
broken romeo search his way
leaving the Juliet in despair

no one to blame in this..
just fate turn the world of all
the unfold story that will kill the knight
as it has kill the romeo...

THE TROUBLE me

I have an angel that always be with me... the thing that i gave her is pain and hurt...

i'm standing still waiting to be help
to get me through this hard time
praying an angel would guide me
give me strength so that i will move on

then she came to me
with the light to show me the way..
i feel calm, i have the reason to move on
she show the way,she show the path,she show me life

but what i gave her is pain 
and hurt that leave a scar on her heart
the angel cry alone while i started laughing
how cruel is me,to let the angel to despair

well the blame is on me 
as i keep on putting the burden on her
i should have known that i should juz be alone
as i was the devil  all this while

Friday, March 25, 2011

the pain is killing me....

PLEASE DONT STOP THE PAIN
how the world seem to play me
making me feel like a puppet
put a scar in my heart and juz walk away
feel no emotions but only pain

sometimes all we need is hope
but hope sometimes that kills us
hope make us see thing
but hope is the one that make people blind

we always do our best at something that we love
but fate can change all the effort we put on
as the result ,only pain youll feel
and trust me it hurt badly...

the pain killing me,is killing me,is killing me
but know i know the fate plays me well
now i could see what the world is about
show the core of the heartless soul

dun need a cure,the pain is satifying
shattered my soul into pieces
break my heart like a glass
and juz leave me alone


Saturday, March 12, 2011

PILIHAN MEMBUNUH PERSAHABATAN...

 kini aku tahu pilihan yang melukakan hati aku itu adalah pilihan yg terbaik untukku


dunia ku banyak pilihan
yg mengaburi mata dan mengkusutkan minda
 kerana pilihan menentukan jalan hidup setiap manusia
salah pilihan kita terjatuh pilihan yg tepat kita bangun

namun apabila perasaan mencampuri fikiran
pilihan yg dipilih melukakan hati semua orang
dan pilihan yang terbaik ialah menggunakan pemikiran
walaupun melukakan hati

percintaan atau persahabatan
pilhan yg sering menggangu minda 
menjaga hati atau melukakan hati
pemikiran dan hati memainkan peranan

dlm kekalutan minda dan  kecelaruan hati
pilihan yg dibuat membunuh persahabatn
namun pilihan itu akan merugikan
kerana cinta dtg berjuta kali,dan persahabatan cuma sekali


Saturday, February 26, 2011

a teddy bear for you

 i bought a teddy bear juz for you...

a teddy bear i saw
patches in its head and body
with a heart in its chess
with a smiley on its face

it represented you
the patches shows how u save me
from the hole in my heart 
and from the lonelyness that i barely stand

the heart of the teddy
represent how u give me love
that brighten the darkness of my heart 
without u im still lost


the smiley makes me think of you
everytime u smile it make me smile
and when u stop smiling the day  darker
so smile all the time and bright up my day
juz feels happy like the teddy that always smile

so i will be at ur side like u always do
give u the love that u deserve
smiling everytime i see you..
and try to be the perfect person for you



Wednesday, February 23, 2011

sekarang aku ada di sisi mu...seperti kau juga disisi ku..

ENCIK KUMBANG SELALU MENGHAMPAKAN CIK BUNGA..
AKAN ENCIK KUMBANG TEBUSKAN..BERMULA DGN PUISI INI....

disaat aku terluka dia ada di sebelah aku
walaupun ku tak sedar yg dia sentiasa ada
kerana aku terlalu megharap yang lain
dan itu telah menutup mata ku

dalam setiap langkah ku dia bersembunyi di balik bayang2
berharap aku akan sedari perasaan nya terhadap ku
dia sanggup menangis, menyimpan perasaan'
demi kebahagiaan ku.

setiap puisi yg ku nukilkan dia membaca nya
berharap ada ku nukilkan untuknya
walaupun kadangkala hampa
dia setia menunggu

namun aku belum terlambat..
kerana ku telah lihat dia di balik bayang2 itu
dan aku akan keluarkan dia dari bayang2 itu
kerana dia aku mara walau dgn hati susah

kata2 semangat yg hanya dia yg beri
agar aku bangkit dari tejatuh
walau hati nye terluka..
dia tak penah putus harap terhadap ku


rangkap terakhir INI aku ucapkan
terima kasih dan akan aku pertahan kan dirimu sedaya upaya
agar ko terima selayaknya..
sekarang aku ada di sisi mu...seperti kau juga disisi ku..

PUISI KHAS UNTUK N.A(CIK BUNGA)

Thursday, February 3, 2011

aku undurkan diri...

nothing personal..
nafas yg ku helah terhenti
bila dia hadir kepadamu
dan bila langit itu mendung
dan dia berkata padaku
ku tahu...

ku harus pergi meninggalkan dirimu
dia layak untuk mu lebih dari diriku...
dan bila saat itu tiba 
anggaplah ku mencintai dirimu
dan berharap bahagia kau dan dia..

langkah ku akan perlahan
namun ku teruskan jua
walau tanpa diri mu kerna ku akur
yg manusia biasa akan terluka
demi mencari cinta dan

ku menghapus jejak ku
agar ku tiada lagi
dlm kisah hidup mu..
dan jagn la ko menganggap diriku pengecut

ku cuma mahu kau bahagia dgn temanku itu
kerna cintaku lebih dri segala gala nya..
biarkan aku pergi  meniggalkan dirimu..
bukan ku tak cinta 
cuma ku mahu dian dan kau bahagia